I hope you are all having a great week. I am into my third week here in Portland and still loving the city and the people… but to be honest I can’t WAIT to be employed again. While the weekends have been great, filled with exploring and trying new restaurants, the weeks have been long and I need to up my game on structuring more of a routine for myself.
Truth be told, I have been working since I was 11 years old (in those early years, under the table… haha) but still…I have never been unemployed EVER. Technically speaking I’m not unemployed right now, I am still working part time for my Boston employer… yet, not going into an office every day and having that home base/daily human interactions has got me down.
I have a final round interview with an organization I would LOVE to work for, next early next week. I am hopeful all will work out and I will be a full-timer again in no time, but until then things just feel a little in limbo. So what am I doing to stay sane? Well, I have been setting small goals for myself each day. Today I walked over to the Portland DMV and renewed my license—YAY new Oregon license!
Now is the time to get all of the tedious things I need to get done completed. Portland’s pace has been really good for me so far, I definitely need to unwind and take a breath. This week has been all about re-teaching myself how to embrace these rare moments of relaxation rather than stressing over them (currently a work in progress, haha). I know that once I’m employed I will miss moments like these. I have worked so hard for so long, I forgot what it’s like to just be and relax.
I read a quote today from Pema Chodron that said, “Somehow, someone finally needs to encourage us to be inquisitive about the unknown territory and about the unanswerable question of what’s going to happen next. The state of nowness is available in that moment… In that awkward, ambiguous moment–right there in the uncertainty of everyday chaos is our wisdom mind.”
I need to read this over and over and over to remind me that I have to embrace the nowness of this move…to appreciate the moments of having the time and space to take it all in. Some great nowness that Nick and I experienced over the weekend was a 6 mile hike we did in Lava Canyon! Nick bought a book, 60 hikes within 60 miles for the PNW and we are going to highlight each in the book once we’ve done them to see how many we can do! Here are some gorgeous shots from our hike.
I have also been head over heels for the food here. One of my favorites so far was brunch at Bread and Ink. It was seriously some of the best brunch I’ve ever eaten…The cinnamon buns where fresh baked and literally melted in our mouths… the best part was, it was a DOLLAR. Yup, fresh baked goodness for one dollar. Stupid good… I also discovered the beloved bialey which is basically a bagel with roasted garlic or onion in the middle. It was so delicious… We had totally over ordered but we fit as much as possible.
These are the delicious reasons I had to start a food journal…
Aside from all of the amazing restaurants we have been trying together, it has also been SO nice to have a full kitchen and utensils to cook for myself too. While prepping at home, I have been trying to stick to as many healthy options as possible. In the spirit of finding some kind of order among the chaos of all of this unknown, I have started a food journal and workout routine while I have the time.
All in all, I would say I am adjusting pretty well. Being alone in a new city can be tough but I know in time it will get easier little by little. It is the first time I have ever lived in a different time zone than my friends and family and it can get a little lonely after 7pm when you know all of your people are asleep on the other side of the country. It can also be hard as an adult to make new friends. While at the DMV I was chatting with a girl my age, who had also moved from out of state and was renewing her license… she seemed nice enough and we even talked about how hard it is to make new friends, yet neither of us made any effort to exchange info and become friends…Why? Because it feels fucking weird! That’s why, haha.
Anyhow, all of that in due time… tomorrow I am venturing out to a drive-In screening of the Big Lebowski under a nearby bridge near our apartment. Admission is $8 bucks and people bring blankets and snacks to lay out and watch the flick. That should fill my social quota until Nick gets home tomorrow night.😀